Argh it’s another Monday, I hate Monday’s so much and I am sure quite a number of y’all do too. Lol Mondays are the only days Nigerians get to pretend they are getting some work done. Ummmm enough with the Monday talk ( I am sure that’s what you were thinking), so I am gonna get right to it. I want to introduce y’all to Wolly Bear, she is my journal. Wolly Bear is what they call those really hairy caterpillars.
Wolly Bear has been really instrumental in my psychological, emotional and mental growth. Like I mentioned in my previous post “YOUR LUCK IS IN YOUR LEGS”, I kind of battled depression after my N.Y.S.C. One day I went to the mall to buy something and I met this really nice guy, we exchanged numbers and got talking. He asked what I was doing at the moment, I told him I had just finished my service and looking for a job. He asked how I was coping and I opened up to him, I told him how miserable I felt.
Dude told me to get a journal or open up my phone notes, write down 10 things I am generally grateful for, “just 10, I am sure while you are writing them down you will think of more than 10, but I just need you to write down 10” he said, and when I wake up the next day the first thing I should do is open up the journal read what I have written down, meditate for 5- 10 minutes and pray. He also said that at the end of each day after that, I should write down 3 things I was grateful for. Lol at first I just thought it ridiculous, but I did it anyways “ what have I got to loose” I thought. I wrote down 10 things I was grateful for, woke up the next morning and did as I was asked, and then I realized that I have just been a bitch.
Basically, writing down those things made me realize how ungrateful I have been for a long time and how much I have taken for granted; like for Christ sake I have my family, friends, food, shelter, the internet, Netflix and so many others to be grateful for. While I was praying all I remember saying was “ Lord I have been an ungrateful brat, please forgive me” repeatedly. Before then I thought I had already made a huge mistake in my life that can’t be reversed, but when I did that it was clear I was taking life too seriously, I had made plans for myself forgetting God is the master planner. I learned that there is so much to be grateful for, I have things some people could only dream of and I was still shitty.
So now I share my thoughts (they are so weird), dreams (they could make a block buster movie), goals, fears and so on with Wolly Bear. You must think I am bunkers for personalizing a journal, don’t mind me it’s a weird thing I do to inanimate objects that mean a lot to me, I give them life to justify my love for them and I think of Wolly Bear as a friend.
I know some of y’all are going through something at the moment, I urge you to get a journal and do the same; trust me it would make you feel so much better. It worked for me, it might work for you also. Never underestimate the power of meditation, it brings you closer to your inner demons, you get to know yourself better and know your potentials. I am obsessing over Bazzi and Lauv’s sound this week, y’all should check them out.
Yours truly coco
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